Friday, October 9, 2015

Waiting...

Following the Learn, Love and Learn post...doing all of this will take time.  

Time is a precious commodity.  We get impatient with ourselves and with others. We want everything right now!  I wrote a post on the microwave relationships and how they are impractical and hold no true value.  

I have a journal.  I periodically write my feelings down.  If I'm going through a new change or if something puts me in the mood.   Here is one poem I wrote about having patience and waiting on what I want :


Him...


I'm waiting on him...I'm waiting on him. I know I don't have to wait alone, but I choose to.  I could be content with you, but from the 2nd week; I knew you weren't him. 
He is the one I'm preparing for. 
I'm re-learning and re-membering myself, so he can recognize me. 
I'm waiting on him. 
I already feel his love.  I re-member it as I start to re-learn and 
re-memeber myself, I love myself. 
He loves me now, like he loved me then. 
He is the man!
His memory means more than your presence will ever mean to me. 
I'm waiting...
Re-learning and re-membering me, so he can recognize me and come to me. 
( As he always does... life after life)
We loved and cared for each other.  He built me up to the status of a Queen and I gave him the power of a King.  
We ruled together and the world was in Awe of our love.  Our children were stars in our eyes and we raised them to the sky...together. 
I'm waiting on him...I'm waiting on him...
I know I don't have to wait alone, because you want to be here. 
 It's not a reflection on you, but you will never be him.  
So why hold his place?  
Make your pilgrimage to her. 
So go, go and re-learn yourself and re-member her.  
Because I'm re-learning and re-membering me so he can recognize me... and continue to move me in this lifetime. 
I'm sorry, but I'm waiting and I choose to wait alone. 
Because his memory means more than your presence could ever mean to me. 


I wrote this January 18, 2015. 

I wanted to re-mind myself of my life mission.  To be who I dream of and to have the partner to compliment that dream. It has took some time, but it was worth the wait. 

But patient with yourself and whomever you decide to invite on this journey. 


1love, 

Carrice